When i read those emails that i sent out, i thought to myself, is it written for me? and i wonder if you will read it or end up in the trash.. Those mails came at the right time, right when i really lost of words how to express myself..

Maybe the one you been looking for is already there, right in front of you.. We always put them aside not because the someone ain't good enough. We are always in search of better one. Slowly and surely we got lost in the sea of love, asking why god didn't give me anyone, and why everyone on the street seem to be holding hands.. where is my another half?

What is perfect and what is imperfect? Isn't it just our own standard or is it our friends standard??

posted by Gino at 1:18 AM

Went out with the whole poly gang out for a SUPER advance chirstmas Dinner, kind of enjoy myself made it seems as if it was my birthday, doing all the entertaining and disturb ppl haha..

An incident happened last night if you guys know what i meant. I'm sorry ya, hope you understand it wasn't on purpose and hope everything was fine. So far i'm on course everyday repeating and repeating the routine till i'm really sick of it.. The Entire system just screwed up but no one dares to sound out. IS like an open secret BUT NO ONE WANT TO FACE IT.. just dumb anyway making use of a 2G mentality person to "try" build a 3G person, it is just not going to work.. I really d0n't understand which part do they not understand?

hai, this world just unfair.. damn I miss the good old dayS!

posted by Gino at 5:06 PM

You are The Emperor

Stability, power, protection, realization; a great person.

The Emperor is the great authority figure of the Tarot, so it represents
fathers, father-figures and employers. There is a lot of aggression and violence
too.

The Emperor naturally follows the Empress. Like an infant, he is filled with enthuiasm, energy, aggression. He is direct, guileless and all too often irresistible. Unfortunately, like a baby he can also be a tyrant. Impatient, demanding, controlling. In the best of circumstances, he signifies the leader that everyone wants to follow, sitting on a throne that indicates the solid foundation of an Empire he created, loves and rules with intelligence and enthusiasm. But that throne can also be a trap, a responsibility that has the Emperor feeling restless, bored and discontent.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

posted by Gino at 5:05 PM

Hey i guess everyone is not visiting this blog so often le right =P hahaha sorry for being so slow on updating.. My life really fruitful haha if you know what i mean.. Went for course after course.. Kinda of tired of this "trainee" life though learn alot in my last attended course can hao lian say really made me a better leader lol.. just came back from taiwan not too long ago..

Still feeling that fatigue level, keep feeling very sleepy + like going to fall sick. Which is very bad.. cause now on course cannot miss any lessons.. Which is like what The **** though is really dangerous not knowing the drills but we are repeating it over and over and over again.. how to forget? even if miss aliitle? hai like i said in my interview with the highest superior, there is really something wrong with the system. Though it's like a open secret to everyone but everyone just seem to cover it up or choose to ignore it cos if there's the "CHANGE" alot of people will get chop. Hai.. i guess people are just so use to their comfort zone. but i did say if i have the chance i will be the one to make the difference in this law that everyone abiding..

Really miss my friends, all my poly, my brothers, my sisters, my family really don't have time for them.. don't talk about myself.. to think about what happened recently.. Like what luke said maybe time to wear my "glasses" things are getting alittle foggy i can hardly see.. i really feel you bro.

posted by Gino at 11:37 PM

haha.. just POP like on wednesday.. Much have changed.. my life, my time not so much of my character.. but there's still changes that i deem positive i guess.. started to pack my own bed lol like too use to it cos ns no choice..

Changes seem to be good and bad.. some that i'm still trying to adapt myself to.. Is seriously quite fast, is been two mths since the converstion from a cillivian to a NSF, i wonder to myself would things be different if i was still a cilivian?

All the freedom, the time that i used to have all seem to be taken away.. the happiness seem to be lacking.. not saying that life suck but there's things that i can't do like i used to.. all the time we had to play, go for run at night, supper and stuff like that all being taken away at the instant.. Kind of dread ns life..but still got to serve 1yr and 8mths..

Though life in ns is beginning to another phrase but it seem to make me lose more things then gaining?.. i don't know if is a test from the above for me.. but it really sad when no one seem to understand how it feels to being trying to spend time with the one you love.. and not being appreciated.. sometimes really don't know what to give or how much to give then it will be good enough.. or maybe not to give then it will be good.. for me i just feel like giving the best i can..

kind of worried that i wouldn't have time for anyone even myself as my VT is starting soon.. Don't know how to describe the feeling like lost.. Vt is total 3 mths with Airborne.. Going to taiwan for training 21 days + alot of tekong and marlising.. AND airborne course 3 weeks practically outfield and more outfield.. also don't know if is the right choice to go for the CSLC..

I guess if not for you i wouldn't even try.. just want to thank you for giving me the fighting spirit.. you are the only reason why i'm still going..

Can't talk so much of my ns =P confidential.. zipped.. alright enough of talking crap try to updated soon.. but doubt can lah. CSLC really like mini ranger course.. no time.. just wish that everyone would be fine.. Take care ya everyone..

posted by Gino at 2:02 AM

From exam break till now is full-time slacking, part time working.. hai this is not going to work!!! i need $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ alot alot of them!!! wahahahahaa..

Anyway WE finally broke the curse of going JB with 2 guys 1 girl wahaha.. for the first time 2 guys and 2 girls! =) hehee proudly introduce my Team, zac my super 3 years long teammate since yr1.1 all major projects, 2ndly eve i'm her last mafan friend in the class.( was complaining in the car, how mafan i was not attending the orientation haha did it on purpose cos of Xxx reasons =P haha you know what!!) 3rdly, ade can't quite remember how i know her lol.. but anyway knew her in yr3 =)
had fun man that day went for movie in JB.

I asked joy, the other day, when was the last time you did something for the first time? haha seriously have you guys ever ask yourself the questions like this? (can drop some comments in on this, treat it as an update to me about you =) hahaha..

(To:Wendy) [Hey, spotty are you still there? hahaha remember the pictures upload somewhere please. Or tell me when i can get it from you! haha Take carE!]

(To: luke) [been faithfully following your blog, haha i can only say you speak my heart in life, your sky and my sky may not be blue but doesn't mean it is not nice, you just need to look at it in a different perspective probably we can find a better view haha. Counting what you have is more difficult then counting what you don't. i know is easily said hardly done but you will never know till you try =) and take care!]

(To: Zihui) [hey saw your blog and your tag, just wondering what happened to you? Don't worry i will call you]

(To:Everyone) [ you guys are missed, Hope everyone is doing well, for those who is not/think they are not doing well haha.. you guys cheers cos things may not be as bad as you think it is.]

posted by Gino at 10:07 AM

actually this few days been thinking abit more then usual. Quite a number of things on my mind, went to see a "master" in fortune telling he told me say that i might get hacked! I was like what the **** but all the rest of the things he said was true enough to make me ponder about will i really get hackeD by knife? but again if it is meant to be then sadly i can only pray don't kana my face =P just joking really crossing my fingers..

Why sometime it's just crappy in life. what you pray and hope for just don't turn out the way, it's what the say karma? what you did to others will in return (1time or more) back to you? hai..

Anyway really miss the old days, where it seem no tomorrow, just soccer after school and when in school what you do is just play and talk with friends.. now to think where have all those gone to? miss the smile you gave even the glance that use to give me the reassurance also fading.. don't distance away cos is not you if is necessary is me that needs to back off.

enough for now haha any way don't watch blood and chocolate NOT nice!!!!!!!!! sunday we have cycling hope everyone can attend! Take care!

posted by Gino at 2:36 AM

Yeah Yeah at last we did something that we planned long time ago.. hehehe.. Really feels great but the chalet 1 day nia.. =X but we had fun!! See all the hard work put in by all the people that made this possible, zac aka zacky (booking the chalet, transportation, shopping, decoration), dawn aka chilli padi (planning of games, food preparation), si min aka mama (shopping, food preparation), edwin (chef for the chalet, transportation, shopping), joy aka gek (collection of CASH, decoration), evelyn aka nu ren (decoration, shopping, planning of activites), i me gino (shopping, food preparation, sound man, drinks alcohol and non-alcohol, collection of cash) hehehe i am involved in everything!!! =P just kidding everyone mention above put in their heart into planning this chalet BUT BUT this chalet would not be successful if not for all the people that attended, i want to thank individual like louis helped to buy charcoal and syrup, marcus for his friends, jinfu aka papa for the pool meeting before chalet, john and ah boon for attempting to spolit the bed =P haha just kidding.. jonathan aka boss and wendy for attending =) and many many more lah sorry if i missed anyone too much too write getting lazy =P

hey committee members, i just want to ask when will be the next activity coming? heard there is a cycling trip? ubin? overseas lei? hehehehe.. TAG ME!!!!

Ps: had a lot of fun this chalet, but really feeling the "lost" feel coming stronger then ever before. Hope NS wouldn't be as bad as i think it is.

posted by Gino at 11:19 AM